hey lovers. today is wednesday but it's really like friday because I HAVE A FOUR DAY WEEKEND. woooooord. to. your. fucking. MOTHER. i'm so stoked. tonight i'm just going to rock out with my cock out, only if i had a cock. that would help. theeeeen tomorrow evening andrea hottie desantis is spending the night at mi casa and we are partyin' it up spanish style. yeahhh son. then friday through sunday, it's camp time. it's my last time at camp and i'm pretty sure that i'll be sad and happy all at the same time. some people will be there, as well as some not. but... that is just a fact of life.

i was thinking today about death and how it is just a factor of life that we can't just escape. even if you seclude yourself from the whole world, you yourself will die someday. not to rain on your parade, but death's just a fact that i'm learning to accept. i'm doing quite well, thanks.

bye<3

hmmm i thought today was going to be really really bad, but it turns out, it wasn't at all. i'll tell you the deets, no worries.

i woke up literally 6 minutes before my bus came. i put on shorts, not knowing how fucking freezing it was outside, and then put on mismatched sandles. i had one blue adidas sandle and another black. i am an idiot in the morning. then it was pouring once i got into school. mr. king still isn't here. he has a clogged aerta. i am very concerned and i miss him very much. then second period was alright. i got an 87 on my test, go me. we learned something really easy that i'm sure i've done before. then since it was raining, we couldn't go outside for gym, so we went in the weight room instead. good lord, i fucking hate gym class and gahr. we took a test in spanish. i should say, colt and i took a test while kate and farns copied. thanks, slackers. that period was the one when the ever so amazing anouncement was given by my bff j walls. WE ARE GOING HOME EARLY BECAUSE WE LIVE IN OCEAN CITY AND IT IS TOO WET. holler back if you're freaking black. i'm was so happy. it made my day 20 times better. we were also not even having 12th period which was good because i was going to miss it because of an orthodontist appointment and we had a test. amazinggg! mr. checks was back in action today. we concluded hamlet. i wonder what's next in that class. meh, who knows? then lunch was it's usual. food, food, food. i attempted to drink from my water bottle with out taking the cap off. that was interesting as well as impossible. history was well, history. it was full of mispronunciation of words and all that good stuff. and i went to italian for about 2 minutes and then it was time to go home! hilly and steph came over after school. we ate, then at 2 i went to my orthodontist appointment to get my bottom braces off! hooray! my teeth hurt really bad though. ugh. i bled a lot too. it was ugly. but that's alright. i'm over it. then i came home and hung out with hilary and steph for a little while more. steph and hilary went home around like 7ish. i did outlining and other hw for about and hour and a half and then put annie and marian to bed. then i went on the computer and here i am now. tomorrow we have an assembly in school which i am siked about just because i dont feel like going to class anymore. i'm so tired all the time. ugh. well, i'm off to myspace it up now. LEAVE ME COMMENTS ON MY NEW PICS!!!

hmm two days in a row writing in here. pretty good. go me. today would have been so much better if i didn't have the most extreme pain in my back possible. it hurts to breathe. i sneezed today and my tail bone popped. sort of funky. and painful. arg.

anyway, school was ok. when i got home... i did homework and got marian off the bus. then did some more work and ate dinner. i picked up marian from jesus club after eating my super dee duper dinner. it was vegetarian over rice with pita bread from katina's. ahhhh food orgasm. so good.

now i'm ready to go to bed.

goodnight.

hmmmm myspace isn't working, so i'm like OHHH i'll do my xanga since i never do it anymore. hmm today was ok. latin was good, we took some notes. then chem was alright. i got all the homework right. fuck yes. what now. then gym... let's just say that i can't serve a fucking birdie for my life. like, at all. hmm then spanish, senor no estaba alli! arg. i'm not learning anything in that class. PERIOD. uhh english... we watched hamlet. he's my main homedawg-ferd. uhh yes. then lunch was it's usual. i had to borrow dinero from zachy-poo farnzzzzzie. hmmm then history. i was colton's partner. if you have ever been colton's partner, i feel no need to explain. if you even know colton, there is no need to explain. it's a terrifying experience. then italian was so fucking boring. arggg. then... pre calc. we had a quiz. it was.... bleh.  a quiz.

so now i'm going to try for myspace. PEACE OUT<3

my... what is there to say? little things in life seem so trivial since brian's death. nothing else seems to matter. really, just stupid little things like putting your laundry away or doing the dishes. honestly, why? what is the point? everything else is so small and insignificant now. it really is. so dont harp on the little things like you didn't get the homecoming dress that you wanted, fighitng with your parents, or just almost everything. so stupid and small. just love life, for serious. be the best friend that you can and don't be an ass. seriously, dont do stupid things just because you don't care. care about someone, something at least.

god. somebody give a shit, please.